FIGHTING BACK: One Mother’s Story–Chapter Six

| June 19, 2017

Traffic into New York City had been bumper to bumper. I was late. Valerie, my five-year-old, was in Babies Hospital one month after her last chemo. It was January 12, 1972, the date marking the end of two long, difficult years of shock and turmoil for my small family. This time, her checkup was for […]

FIGHTING BACK: One Mother’s Story–Chapter Five

| June 5, 2017

Ed and I worked hard. We had no options. Our major medical had maxed out at $20,000—that was gone in an eye’s blink—and the slew of doctor and hospital bills on the corner of Ed’s desk showed no signs of diminishing. Besides that, there was the need to eat. Our new company, E & S […]

FIGHTING BACK: One Mother’s Story–Chapter Four

| May 15, 2017

Valerie has cancer. All at once I forgot about Ed’s reaction to my tears; normally, that would have been eating at me. But his biting behavior in the diner really didn’t matter anymore. I knew he was as shocked, as upset, as I was. And his conduct, I’m sure, was as outrageous as mine probably […]

FIGHTING BACK: One Mother’s Story–Chapter Three

| May 1, 2017

“Stacy, hon. Daddy, Valerie and I have to go into New York again. The doctor wants another look at her leg.” No questions asked; no further explanation needed.  I wondered briefly about my mother; how would she have handled this? But she was not there for me: not to rely upon or to babysit, to […]

FIGHTING BACK: One Mother’s Story–Chapter Two

| April 17, 2017

Eleven years after that jarring night in March when I learned my mother had died, my wonderful brother Stan was gone. He was killed in an automobile accident on the Henry Hudson Parkway in Riverdale, New York. Stan was twenty-six. I still miss him. One year later, determined to build a new life for myself, […]

FIGHTING BACK: One Mother’s Story–Chapter One

| April 3, 2017

FIGHTING BACK: One Mother’s Story by Suzann B. Goldstein   PART ONE THE SECRET SITS  We dance round in a ring and suppose,   But the Secret sits in the middle and knows.                                                 ( Robert Frost, 1942)   I don’t remember my mother. She collapsed and died one Saturday night in March while my parents were playing […]

A LUCKY PUSH

| February 1, 2017

“Don’t push your luck, Sue,” a jogging friend said to me, apropos of something or other. His comment surprised me. Luck? What was he talking about? What kind of luck did I have? Take jogging. I was followed on a placid, tree-lined road in a rural-part of Warren by a weird guy in a red convertible. […]

MY BEST WRITING

| December 1, 2016

My Faith My Way (2016/09/01) The Grief that Howls (2016/11/01) Cancer: Emperor of All Maladies (2015/11/15) Kids, Cars, and the Unpredictability of Life (2011/02/02)

NAVIGATING CANCER: A Lay Person’s View

| October 1, 2016

  Cancer! What a word. The sound of it alone shivers the soul. Although every major illness creates the same reaction, I am most familiar with cancer. I know its nightmare best. I am a medical sociologist who has lost two children to cancer: Valerie at 9 and Stacy at 37. I have endured the illnesses […]

MY FAITH MY WAY

| September 1, 2016

My husband Ed and I along with most of our extended family and friends will celebrate the beginning of the Jewish New Year, Rosh Hashanah, with dinner at our home. On the eve of the holiday, we will light yahrzeit candles in memory of our loved ones who have died. I will also recite one of the […]